Hi Sweetheart,
I always knew this day would come and you would be sitting here reading what is being read. I always knew you would understand, you would be able to read the signs I had left. For if you hadn’t then you would not have been the girl. But now that you have reached so far you probably want me to say something. Something has to be said. And that something is I Love You! I love you for being what you are I love you for coming so far. I love you for being so intellectual. I love you for being so beautiful and I love you for…..
You are again correct to think of this as a love letter. This is a love letter. But the feeling of the letter should not come from the content but from the place where it is placed. It is this place which is making it so sacred. It is the way in which this is being read and not what is read which is special about what you are reading.
It’s been dreams so many dreams. Dreams in which we meet, dreams where I experience the divine love. And now finally this day has come and today you know for sure that I love you. The only thing missing is that you can’t see me in this moment, but I know you can feel me. It can’t be stated in words how I am feeling at this particular time. The girl of my life knows that I love her! All those moments of pain and agony have ended in which dreams were my only oases. Today imagination turns to reality, it’s not only that I love you but I also know that you love me! Can anyone guess what it brings out of me?
There is so much I want to talk to you about; so much that it is more than infinity. To compare it with the space here is a crime. So wait till the next time we meet and then we’ll conquer infinity.
All questions answered but one remains, you know who I am but do you know who you are?
Friday, December 14, 2007
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Love? You?
She was sitting right in front of me; my eyes were fixed on her face and brain trying to resolve what was so beautiful about the signals my eyes were receiving? This was the part of a group discussion in which time is given to the participants to think on the topic. Yes, I was sitting in the SAVI room. She didn’t know what was going on my mind. The group discussion started and if Locality of Reference is right I had to think about something different now. The session ended and I wanted to talk to her for more time but there are some things beyond your control.
That evening was like any other. In bed as I recalled the day she captured my thoughts. When I fell asleep, I cannot tell.
“Hi, Sandeep”, I heard a familiar voice. When I turned God’s greatest creation was standing before me “Not in a mood for SAVI. Why don’t we go for a walk” She said, her voice ringing bells in my ears.
“As you wish”, I replied. My heart beats were similar to that of an athlete who was under the effect of an adrenalin gush.
“I always wanted to be with you, never got a chance”, she smiled.
“Let’s sit there near the trees”, I said, my voice started choking.
Gathering my nerves I asked “You were going to tell me something”.
“Yes…. I have been wondering for sometime now…. Don’t you know…. Just look into my eyes”. She somehow said, not knowing what to say.
It must have been a similar moment when Einstien thought of Time Dilation because his results were now being experimentally verified. In the millenniums which I lived, I cannot define exactly in which century it took place but, as soon as my lips touched hers I was lost in a world beyond description.
“Sandeep, we will be late for the lecture” some one shouted, all of a sudden. I looked around to see no one until I heard the voice once again.
“Wake up dude or else we’ll be thrown out of the class”. It was Vinay my roommate.
Everything disappeared, except the feeling of her lips, her breath blowing me away.
I hurried to the class; while attending the boring lecture, my mind started wandering, what it was last night? Was it love? If love is a feeling can there be anything more divine. Though it was a dream, the passion in dream is always more pure, more strong and greater than that in real life, for instance fear, anxiety or even sex.
May be she doesn’t even know that I love her. It’s true that what I felt that night was not the reality and had no physical existence. But then emotions are to be felt and not to be judged. What I held that night is a precious gem which can never be taken away.
That evening was like any other. In bed as I recalled the day she captured my thoughts. When I fell asleep, I cannot tell.
“Hi, Sandeep”, I heard a familiar voice. When I turned God’s greatest creation was standing before me “Not in a mood for SAVI. Why don’t we go for a walk” She said, her voice ringing bells in my ears.
“As you wish”, I replied. My heart beats were similar to that of an athlete who was under the effect of an adrenalin gush.
“I always wanted to be with you, never got a chance”, she smiled.
“Let’s sit there near the trees”, I said, my voice started choking.
Gathering my nerves I asked “You were going to tell me something”.
“Yes…. I have been wondering for sometime now…. Don’t you know…. Just look into my eyes”. She somehow said, not knowing what to say.
It must have been a similar moment when Einstien thought of Time Dilation because his results were now being experimentally verified. In the millenniums which I lived, I cannot define exactly in which century it took place but, as soon as my lips touched hers I was lost in a world beyond description.
“Sandeep, we will be late for the lecture” some one shouted, all of a sudden. I looked around to see no one until I heard the voice once again.
“Wake up dude or else we’ll be thrown out of the class”. It was Vinay my roommate.
Everything disappeared, except the feeling of her lips, her breath blowing me away.
I hurried to the class; while attending the boring lecture, my mind started wandering, what it was last night? Was it love? If love is a feeling can there be anything more divine. Though it was a dream, the passion in dream is always more pure, more strong and greater than that in real life, for instance fear, anxiety or even sex.
May be she doesn’t even know that I love her. It’s true that what I felt that night was not the reality and had no physical existence. But then emotions are to be felt and not to be judged. What I held that night is a precious gem which can never be taken away.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Abstraction of Life
Well from the topic of this post and that of of the blog it would have been preety easy to guess that life is my favaurite topic to discuss. So here goes the latest abstraction I have been thinking about lately.
Its funny what I have to say because, it is an abstraction an analogy,and like always they have to be amusing.
Our College life and our life as it is has a lot of similarities!
Life begins with taking birth. College life begins with your admission
Then you live childhood learning all new things good and bad. In college you go through the first year learning what college is all about, learning new things, gaining new experiances which can be good and bad.
The second phase of life is when you grow a little when your teenage comes this I guess is the most exciting time of life. You dont think about anything you just do what you feel like doing. Same is the case with second year in college you don't have to worry about what is going to come what your future will be you just enjoy college.
Then comes the third phase the time comes when life makes you a serious person this is the time when all the responsibility of the world is resting on your shoulders you have got to do, I don't know what but you do know it. The third year of college plays the same game, the time when you have got to prove your self has come all sorts of exams, jobs and God knows what else are standing in front of you... So you must face it
For the last phase I will talk about college life first. The final year in college the BIG FINAL YEAR all has been achived and its been decided what your next place will be. This is the time you realize that your time is coming to an end your death is aproching. There is so much you want to do but most of the time is lost. You strive hard you try to do as much as you can but still you can't do everthing and you've got to accept your time is over. But in this case life is a little different. As for life there comes a time when you realize that you are settled all that needed to be done has been done its been a long road you have travelled you look back you look at all you have gained and lost. this is the time you get this feeling in your heart that you have missed something. Something that you wanted something your heart wanted, something your soul wanted. BUT that something is lost. Lost because you can't achieve it. You can't achive it because you don't have time. You don't have time because you are dead. Your final year is over!
Its funny what I have to say because, it is an abstraction an analogy,and like always they have to be amusing.
Our College life and our life as it is has a lot of similarities!
Life begins with taking birth. College life begins with your admission
Then you live childhood learning all new things good and bad. In college you go through the first year learning what college is all about, learning new things, gaining new experiances which can be good and bad.
The second phase of life is when you grow a little when your teenage comes this I guess is the most exciting time of life. You dont think about anything you just do what you feel like doing. Same is the case with second year in college you don't have to worry about what is going to come what your future will be you just enjoy college.
Then comes the third phase the time comes when life makes you a serious person this is the time when all the responsibility of the world is resting on your shoulders you have got to do, I don't know what but you do know it. The third year of college plays the same game, the time when you have got to prove your self has come all sorts of exams, jobs and God knows what else are standing in front of you... So you must face it
For the last phase I will talk about college life first. The final year in college the BIG FINAL YEAR all has been achived and its been decided what your next place will be. This is the time you realize that your time is coming to an end your death is aproching. There is so much you want to do but most of the time is lost. You strive hard you try to do as much as you can but still you can't do everthing and you've got to accept your time is over. But in this case life is a little different. As for life there comes a time when you realize that you are settled all that needed to be done has been done its been a long road you have travelled you look back you look at all you have gained and lost. this is the time you get this feeling in your heart that you have missed something. Something that you wanted something your heart wanted, something your soul wanted. BUT that something is lost. Lost because you can't achieve it. You can't achive it because you don't have time. You don't have time because you are dead. Your final year is over!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Don't Know What To Do...
Sorry People For Dissapointing you...
This is the first time I experimented with blogs so didn't had much to write but wait for the next time u won't be dissapointed.......
This is the first time I experimented with blogs so didn't had much to write but wait for the next time u won't be dissapointed.......
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